Junctions

I drive on a road known as "life". Without doubt, there are many junction, turning, slope, beautiful and awful scenaries along the way.

Recently, I encountered numerous junctions, holes and hit stones. They came one after another and I avoided some but somehow, I fell and injured. Then, I heard noices from my car and I noticed my tires went misaligned. So, I did stop, rested for some time and examine my car. This time, the injury extended from the car to my body and eventually to my heart. What has gone wrong recently? I doubted my driving skill and questioned about the performance of my car.

Perhaps this is not something negative to have a pause when I hit problems. This time, I stopped, went under a tree, took fresh air, washed my face and reflected what has gone wrong in the past. In dismay, I was in desperation in search for light in the darkness. At some point in time, I felt like abandoning the car and walked away.

Far away, a friend noticed and has been asking me about my condition. At home, my parents and spouse also noticed the change. For almost three months, I hardly speak to them. Deep in my heart, I appealed to God for help and guidance but I believed that God will help those who help themselves. So, I chose to look into myself for answer.

It was such frustrating moments that I suffered but unlike previous cases, I manage to control my temper and anger and did not put the blame on other persons. I saw growth in my inner self. Although my car suffered from breakdown and my body and emotion suffered from injury in different forms, I am delighted that I still have the strength to rise up and recover. Perhaps, the benefits of such injury include paradigm shift and a re-examination of myself. Indeed, we can see people and things at an unique angle that we hardly have in good time. Now, I have new insight of others and myself. With all these in hand, I believe I can navigate my car better in future.

In comparison to the pain suffered by my grandmom and father, I am not in such poor condition.

No matter how hardly one fall, he must find a way to heal himself, rise up and resume his life. Nothing is too late for a change so long that we are still breathing. Life must go on...